Before I begin this post, I want to say sorry to the many friends and families including mine that I hurt. I cannot begin to imagine what you must be going through and writing these words only makes me realize that there’s actually no words to describe how much I want to take away your pain, how much I wish that I could be the only one suffering so you don’t have to. I’m just so very sorry and I wish that I could make it up to you. But I also understand that my wanting to mak